Anyone who knows me knows that I’m obsessed with The Office. This scene is from the finale and it gets me every time. It’s so true…..we always look to the past and wish we could go back.
This past month has been one that reminds me of how important it is to live in the moment…to realize what you have before it’s in the past. Turning 40 was a big deal. I had mixed emotions about it…..it feels old but I’m also so grateful to have reached this age! I’ve seen levels of support from people that just amazes me, and makes me feel so extremely blessed. I was surrounded by so much love at the surprise party my husband and close friends put together to celebrate my birthday. I mean really…..seeing all the people there that mean so much to me and knowing they feel the same…..it was just overwhelming! And being a finalist in a contest and seeing all my friends and family voting like crazy….just wow! WOW!!!!
I’ve always been a person who tends to live in the past. Remembering things that happened, wondering what life would be like if I had changed something. Wishing I could go back and relive something. Feeling nostalgic over music or items. But I watched this episode of The Office recently, and heard this song on the radio that really put this on my heart:
Sometimes we focus too much on the past or the future. We don’t live enough in the moment….but I’ve been sitting here lately just feeling every day how amazing life is. And how blessed I am…. Life can be so amazing if we change our focus!
Thank you again to every single person who has been there for me. I have laughed and loved more this year than I thought was possible! I have several circles in my life….and love each one so much!
Sitting here in the final hour of my 40th birthday…..I’m just so extremely grateful. This was not an age I was overly excited about…..it seemed like such an old age when I was younger…..an age I thought would take forever to reach…..yet hear I am. I thought I would dread it….each day getting closer. But I’m ok…..and this is why.
I shouldn’t be here. Plain and simple. I had an aggressive horrible disease that almost killed me. Almost 16 years ago. It’s just crazy to think that I really was so close to dying…looking back on it now. I fought so damn hard, and today…..I get to celebrate another birthday.
I can’t complain about my age, there are people who never make it here. I’m so thankful for this amazing day. 40. Yikes!!! It’s still crazy to think……but it’s such a wonderful age!
This was the best one yet. My incredible husband and amazing friends have been lying to me for weeks…..and pulled off an epic surprise birthday party! I’m telling you….it’s not easy to pull one over on me, and they did it! I have never felt so loved.
This room was filled!!!!! Overwhelmed doesn’t even begin to describe it! Life long friends. Family. People I met because of cancer…..and after. I’m such a blessed person…..and so very thankful I’m here to celebrate another year!!! And as a dear friend told me today….40 is a gift!
I know I’ve been missing…..and it was intentional! I’ve literally not had a summer off since junior high….like most people….and it was amazing! I was able to spend time with my kids, be lazy, have a garage sale, and finally recuperate my poor brain from all the abuse of the past few years! I needed this….and I think my family needed me to have this!
I’ll keep this short….no one needs all the details of my amazing summer! I’ll share some pictures and leave it at that. School starts for my kids tomorrow and we are all getting back to a routine. I’ll start up my blogging again…..it’s like my back to school time too!