Maybe It Was For Nothing….

I think I’ve come to the realization that everything I’ve done is truly pointless.  All the dreams I had of making what I went through mean something……they really do mean nothing.  The things I had hoped for were never attainable.  I am who I am, and that will never change…..or mean anything.

Is this a pity party?  Maybe…..or maybe….it is the simple fact that reality has hit me and I’m just done.  Maybe I didn’t try hard enough…..or maybe it is all just for nothing.  I’m just another person in a giant world of people who have gone through some crap and just keep going through crap and it all just sucks.

I’m sure the 2 people who will read this will try and reach out, but really……I’m ok.  It’s just time to face facts and step away from it all.  I’ll probably shut down my social media soon as well and just live.

Thanks everyone who supported……maybe I’ll post again sometime soon……I’m not sure.

Katie.

Author: rosylenslife

I was diagnosed with breast cancer at the age of 24. My life, job, relationships, everything was changed. I decided to face my battle with humor and keep myself positive. Life after cancer is still crazy, and I'm hoping that by sharing what I went through, and continue to go through, will help someone else feel a little less alone.

7 thoughts on “Maybe It Was For Nothing….”

  1. Boo! I know life can be discouraging. Mine certainly has been. Don’t lose your spirit or your shine. I know it’s there, you just need a minute to recharge. Does it matter who reads this if it makes you happy to put your thoughts into words? Nope. Do what makes you happy girlie, even if you’re the only one doing it. Love you bunches

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  2. I always read your blog. I, for one, know that it always strikes a chord with me. We go through so many similar things and it always makes me think. You have the words that make me feel better, so please don’t stop. I love you!!

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    1. I appreciate that so much!! It’s not just the blog…..I think it’s everything I’ve tried to do over the years. At some point you just have to step back and realize it’s not going to happen or work. I’ll take a. Real from all of that…..but probably still wrote. Love you!

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  3. You are your own worst critic but ME-MYSELF-AND-I think this about you: You beat abuse. You conquered cancer. You triumphed over grief and loss. You continue to battle depression with the brightest smile around. You thrive in a world constantly hammering against your incredibly empathetic heart. You have raised and are raising three beautiful young women who radiate care, kindness, and love for others. You are one of the most supportive and most encouraging role models in my life. There were times when I was that one random person going through crap and YOU were one of my main crutches. When I questioned my worth, my value, my purpose, YOU were there beside me. And I know I am not the only one with a story where you were the hero. So don’t you dare say you haven’t done anything in this world — you’ve touched far more people and made far more change than you could even imagine. The appreciation may be quieter than other’s and the praise may not be news-worthy, but in the end, what’s more important: being loved or receiving a Like?

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  4. Love you….I have been in a terrible funk, dealing with more stresses than I thought I would ever have to deal with. But I’m so glad I checked in with your blog tonight, when I was feeling especially down and frustrated and just tired of how HARD life has been….because you remind me of strength, of not quitting….miss you so much, friend. ❤

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